A Tribute to the 'Bees

Well I did it.

I made the transition back to Applebee's. It was something that I was a little iffy about. But now that I'm making it, it seems like it's right. Though I have no idea how the scheduling will work out.

It was like riding a bike and I got on rather quickly. After just a couple hours following people around, I was put on the floor as a server. My first tip was a whopping $10 and I was pretty excited about that. Basically I made over $30 in tips last night for working... an hour and a half/two hours? Not bad, not bad.... Plus my minimum wage of $2.35. Oh the joy of being a server.

I go back tonight to do it again, but this time I'll start out with a section. I'm kind of excited about it. I hope to make some good money, thought it's a Sunday so it will be slow and the people will be stingy.

But basically I'm kind of excited about it. It feels natural. Though I can't explain it, there's just a sense of peace about it.

Oh and I get to do this quite frequently...

The Greatest Test of Faith

Lately in my life so many things have taught me to trust and to cling to faith. Tomorrow has no guarantees and that is so scary for me. I can't really expound on anything at the moment, but I am just in awe of God's love for me and how he uses things to calm me down and settle my heart. He reminded me in my morning readings that He breathed the stars into existence. He spoke and the heavens and the earth were created.

If my God can do that, why can't I trust Him with the plans He has set before me? He thwarts OUR purposes that we may follow HIS purposes. He covers us with love and blessings as we walk in His grace. As long as I'm following in that, I will be ok. I will be taken care of and provided for.

No one said the straight and narrow would be easy... But it would be worth it.

Psalm 33

1 Sing joyfully to the LORD, you righteous;
it is fitting for the upright to praise him.

2 Praise the LORD with the harp;
make music to him on the ten-stringed lyre.

3 Sing to him a new song;
play skillfully, and shout for joy.

4 For the word of the LORD is right and true;
he is faithful in all he does.

5 The LORD loves righteousness and justice;
the earth is full of his unfailing love.

6 By the word of the LORD were the heavens made,
their starry host by the breath of his mouth.

7 He gathers the waters of the sea into jars ^[a] ;
he puts the deep into storehouses.

8 Let all the earth fear the LORD;
let all the people of the world revere him.

9 For he spoke, and it came to be;
he commanded, and it stood firm.

10 The LORD foils the plans of the nations;
he thwarts the purposes of the peoples.

11 But the plans of the LORD stand firm forever,
the purposes of his heart through all generations.

12 Blessed is the nation whose God is the LORD,
the people he chose for his inheritance.

13 From heaven the LORD looks down
and sees all mankind;

14 from his dwelling place he watches
all who live on earth-

15 he who forms the hearts of all,
who considers everything they do.

16 No king is saved by the size of his army;
no warrior escapes by his great strength.

17 A horse is a vain hope for deliverance;
despite all its great strength it cannot save.

18 But the eyes of the LORD are on those who fear him,
on those whose hope is in his unfailing love,

19 to deliver them from death
and keep them alive in famine.

20 We wait in hope for the LORD;
he is our help and our shield.

21 In him our hearts rejoice,
for we trust in his holy name.

22 May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,
even as we put our hope in you.

Dance With Me - Chris Dupre

Dance with me
O lover of my soul
To the song of all songs
Romance me
O lover of my soul
To the song of all songs

Behold You have come
Over the hills
Upon the mountains
To me You have run
My beloved
You've captured my heart

With You I will go
You are my love
You are my fair one
Winter is past
And the springtime has come

Dance with me

The Last Kiss

So I'm still processing the movie from last night. And the movie this morning didn't really help. [though it didn't really hurt].

I went to Blockbuster to watch a few of those movies that I really wanted to see that either no one else did, or had at least never verbalized to me that they wanted to see them.

I meandered around the Blockbuster for quite sometime looking at titles - for rent or for sale. Immediately I saw my first choice. The Last Kiss. It was on the really cheap table, so I decided to purchase this one instead of rent it. My second choice was Love in the Time of Cholera. The second choice was mainly because I was having a hard time getting into the book, so I thought by watching the plot it would help motivate me into reading it.

The Last Kiss, though I don't specifically remember the trailer, I remembered two things about it. That it had an amazing soundtrack. And that I remember wanting to see it. With that said I popped it in as soon as I got home. It did a number on me.

For one, it's not the happy-go-lucky tail of love that most romantic comedies have. It wasn't a feel good movie. It actually left me questioning everything that I thought about love, relationships, and fidelity. It scared me how easily all the main characters either left or gave up on something that could have worked with just a little communication. It reminded me of the times that people had walked out on me "just because". It scared me that it could happen again.

I would have given anything to talk it over with a person or two (and maybe one very specific person). I know that when I love, I love deeply. And it's very scary for me to love someone, because there's always that fear that maybe they don't love you quite as much as you do. What if they decide that you're not worth loving?

I cried after the movie was over because I don't know what I would have done if I were in the position of the women in this movie. In any of the positions.

Ultimately, I think I may pop it back in today and look at it with fresh eyes. Eyes that understand where the story is going so that when it drastically turns I won't be shocked and appalled.

This is a movie I think that I really, really like. It just rattles you a little. Challenges you to ask the tough questions. And makes you evaluate what you have and where you're going. It moved me more than I think it would most, but if you want a tough movie.... Check it out.