Take a Breath or Two...

I think it’s terminal, this terminal I’m waiting in
Could use a change of scene, it seems I’ve been repeating it
Another day, another plane, another same thing
Yesterday became tomorrow that’s the strange thing
Another string, another strum, another rhyme, another hum
I want to breathe in
I want to breathe in and out again

I’m tired of putting one foot in front of the other
I’m weary of where it leads me to
I’m tired of moving on from my Father
Make me rest my head, take a breath or two

Simply stated simple minded love for You
Has simply been completely complicated
And I’m finding this daily drudgery is finally catching up to me
It’s time for this abandon to make much of You and less of me
I want to breathe in
I want to breathe in and out again

O for a slower pace
Moving at the speed of sound sounds like a race to me
O to be at ease
Moving at the speed of sound gets hard on the knees

Mommy, WOW! I'm a big kid now...

I am SO excited about the future. The good times definitely outweigh all the bad times that have been happening lately.

I love planning and plotting life together. We're going to try and get a house so we can have a vegetable garden and herb garden. I'm excited. :) I'm excited about having a home and running it. I'm thrilled about coming home to a husband that cooks me dinner in his snazzy apron with his fancy knives. I love our "Christmas cars" and the idea of seeing them in the driveway together. I am so excited to fall asleep in his arms on April 25th.

April 25th is going to be, hands down, the best day of my life. I'm so blessed. I'm so grateful. I'm so READY.

Please Understand

I cried tonight. For several different reasons. On several different occasions.

"Run your fingers through my soul. For once, just once, feel exactly what I feel, believe what I believe, perceive as I perceive, look, experience, examine, and for once; just once, understand."

I'm tired of crying.

i'm not who i was

Part of me really wants to tell certain people to grow up and move on. But then I remember that I did, and that they will in time. I just won't be around to see it when it does.