Hippy Christianity and Feeling at Home

Warning: Longer post than normal, but hopefully with something to say...

So I realize that I haven't been really blogging lately. I've come to the conclusion that if I'm not at least halfway positive in what I want to say, then well... I might not say it at all. I've not been depressed or angry at the world, just -- quiet. Lots of feelings have been in this season of my life. Overwhelming contentement and love, being lost in the crowd, feeling as if God's voice has abandoned me, and incredibly high moments of self reflection and moving forward in my faith.

I feel as though I'm coming out of this season of solitude and quiet. God is slowly but surely drawing myself and those around me to Him. I and the church are being wooed by a wonderful Savior.

I found God tonight in a coffee shop. Listening to an incredible singer/songwriter. He reminded me why I love music so much and the rush of being a part of all that. It was in this 1 hour and 10 minute set that I realized how much my faith has changed and developed and (hopefully) matured over the years.

Lately I feel as though I'm leaning toward what I like to call hippy style Christianity. The communal nature of the Trinity and what that actually looks like in practice. For once, realizing that God just longs for our hearts and not a pretend faith. Feeling compassion for all peoples that God has created and specifically wanting to do something about it.

There are a few songs that really stick out to me from tonight:

Somebody's Baby - quoting the lyrics would take forever, son instead, just look them up online. It's a story of a homeless woman who just can't take the pain of it all anymore and ultimately finds a way out of it. But that the idea that she's somebody's baby. That at some point she was the prized possesion of a parent. It puts it in such a real and tangible light. I think we can easily dehumanize those around us, especially the homeless and the marginalized. What are we doing to prevent outcomes like the ones in this song?

This is Home - This is another one that I just want to quote the entire song - so, click on the title and check out the lyrics. I've been going back and forth with why I'm actually in Lexington. Yes, I love my husband very, very much. And I'm very excited to be a part of the FUMC family. Our culture is very, very, very, very wrapped up, however, in what you DO. I haven't DONE anything work wise in... 4 months now. I'm finally coming to grips that it's not about what I do in terms of work, but in terms of love, actions, and community. I'm finally HOME.

Your Love is Strong - A prayer. Awesome lyrics again. Just reminds me so much of how God is in control and yet... How little we allow Him to do. Just a solid reminder of how mighty He truly is.

Ok, so this is lengthy, yes... and I have more that I'm pondering. But I may just save those for another blog sometime very soon. :-) Get excited. The juices are flowing.

The kingdom of the heavens
Is now advancing
Invade my heart
Invade this broken town...