Tonight was absolutely lovely. It was good to steal away and talk to someone who isn't in my daily realm of being. It was definitely needed to take the over 1.5 mile walk to dinner and breathe in the fresh air while catching up and discussing life. Sitting listening to Foreigner at SATCO and watching MTV without sound and chatting about life and responsibility, weddings and budgets, house shopping and college life, cleaning and the weather was exactly what I needed. I miss days like that where interactions like that were normal - random walks and dinners with a mixture of different people each day. I miss college.
After dinner, I drove home (though my calves were a tad shaky) chatting with Jim about miscellaneous objects in his desk as he began to spring clean for the big move in 4-7 weeks (depending on when we move!!). That was fun.
My evening derailed a tad when I went to write the check for my car payment. My booklet wasn't where it should have been and I had NO recollection of seeing it somewhere else. The last time I used it was in New Albany... WHAT THE HECK! Where was it?? After ransacking my entire apartment, I found it... Sitting on top of the filing cabinet that I had been scouring and 3 inches away from where I had been looking. If only I had picked up that one last folder... My blood pressure skyrocketed - for what? Something that was right under my nose.
Sometimes I wonder if God's answers to our questions are like that... Within reach the whole time. We're just looking in the wrong spot? Are we scouring over and under every rock except the one rock that He's waiting for us to turn over? Is it some cat and mouse game of figuring out the correct path in life?
I don't know. I don't have any answers right now. All I know is I'm about to go crazy under all this stress... There's beauty in the breakdown.
Lord, I feel at times that I'm lost in the wilderness without knowing where the path has gone. You know the way. Please show me as only You can do... I can trust You with this. I can. Thank You for Your unfailing love and strength that I draw from each day... You are my EVERYTHING.
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