your winter

So, I'm finding I only post or write in my personal journal when I'm upset or melancholy. First, I must say that I get frustrated at myself for this. I find that it is very selfish of me to only record the bad things and that it really just shows how much I can take things for granted. Also, it makes me sound like a whiney little baby - and I must say that I don't really think that I am.

Second, well... This is bit of a down post, BUT hopefully I can turn the corner and bring some light too. My lovely roommate posted a lovely blog about forgiveness and it really hit home for me tonight. You can view it here. She spoke of what the Greek word for forgiveness meant in that language and how illustrates a sort of abandon. Sometimes I think that there is no real root of a problem and sometimes there is no solution that will be found by going round and round, duking it out until someone falls. Forgive, forget, move on and ENJOY life.

Sometimes we get so drawn into what's wrong with us and others that we forget how wonderful life is. I myself am terribly guilty of this.

Tomorrow I'm wearing flip flops and sunglasses and pretend like I get spring break. I'm going to sing loud with the windows rolled down. I'm going to LIVE and be grateful for what I have.

Thank you, Lord for the wonderful people you put in my life. Forgive me for the times that I take life for granted... Take my hand and lead me into your presence more and more each day. I am nothing without your grace and love.

I won't be your winter
I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
We can be forgiven
I will be here